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Nov. 16th, 2004

12:05 pm - Oi! Oi! Oi!

I'm waiting for that fucking bell to ring...ten minutes...*sigh* I have to go to weight watchers tonight..blech,... for the sake of unrelated topics: thanks to sean, donato, jeff, and josie (along with others that were present this past friday and saturday) for an awesome weekend, I will never forget it..hats off to all of you :p Tomorrow i have my internship and then me and josie are gettin our nails done....I'm very sad though, thursday is the last night of police academy, we have graduation....i just want the food :) Then Sunday is Lee and Nikki's dad's surprise 50th birthday party :)...it should be fun :D....laterz, its lunchtime

Current Mood: hungry

Current Music: Quens of the Stone Age - First it Giveth

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Nov. 15th, 2004

02:25 pm

I just wish things between me and nikki would be cool, it doesn't hve to be the way it was, I just don't want any wierdness.... :i

Current Mood: optimistic

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02:15 pm

i just wish that everything would be okay with me and nikki, I'm not asking for everyhing to go bak to the way it used to be, but i just want us to be cool....I hate that weirdness, I think its unessessary... gtg :i

Current Mood: thirsty

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02:11 pm

oh yeah, and one wednesday I left nikki this really nice note and in it i asked her to call me....did she aknowledge it...no, i had to ask her if she got it, and she was like "oh yeah..." no "thanks" or a phone call, so i said it would have been nice to have heard from you.....oh well, again..why do I bother?

Current Mood: uncomfortable

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11:56 am - confusion

you know, I really don't know what happened with me and nikki...i don't understand why she NEVER calls, oh, wait she called, but it was just cuz she wanted something...she wanted her sneakers bak... and why she never returns phonecalls, and why she is short and weird with me lately when ever I see her...especially thursday at the video store, she gives me these looks, and one word answers, i want to give her a hug goodbye, but she hasn't moved an inch and looks so ridgid that i'm almost scared to touch her...i couldn't take it if she gave me this half ass "get off me" kinda hug....ever since she started going out with ren again is when it really drastactly changed...i know that things changed when I started going out with lee...but thats naturl, things are not always gonna be the same we all chsnge and evolve...but then me and nikki went bak to normal...things panned out, but that hasn't happened this time around...I just wish that she wouldn't act so weird whenever i see her...it hurts, it realy does...I'm acting like myself, trying to be happy and upbeat like: "Hey!! whats up?!?" but all i get in return is a forced response...I don't understand why I bother, its always like pulling teeth...I guess I bother because thats the type of person I am, I care..., and what hurts more is that it seems like she couln't give to flying shits, I really don't think she knows how much shes hurting me or has hurt me in the past...or maybe she does...and if thats the case, and she knows what she is doing, then I do not want to be friends with someone like that...we all grow we all change...its just a part of life, however, I wish things between me and nikki would be more amicable...I'm starting to cry now, I am have to go, I guess I'll just say goodbye now...goodbye

Current Mood: confused

Current Music: the killers

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Feb. 18th, 2004

05:51 pm - Arggghhh

I'm so pissed that i don't have the internet again, i went for so long without having it, and no it has been taken away again because we have noooooo money.....and of course this has to happen just as i start my LJ.....oh well, me and the Kenyons are goin to Chilli's tonight....that should be yummy :) Nikki's all alone in her room, so I'm outie...

Current Mood: pissed off

Current Music: Snake River Conspiracy - Love song

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Feb. 17th, 2004

11:36 pm - fuck me running

i had sooooooooooo much shit written, and then something happened, and now its allllll gone...*big huge fuckin sigh* oi oi oi....I'll re-write everything later...maybe....

Current Mood: annoyed

Current Music: nine inch nails and david bowwie - I'm afraid of Americans

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Jan. 30th, 2004

12:09 pm - SHOOT ME!

I am in school, in study with nothing to do with 22 minutes remaining to lunch......I am so fucking tired...I couldn't get to sleep till around 2:30am, and I have been fumbling and slurring my words all day.....I feel like I am all doped up on klonopin...ehh..anyway, I gotta go home, shower + shave and chill w/ Lee tonight. Its our 6th month anniversary, and its Friday anyway and that our night :) this day has been creeping by so slow...I can't stand it, all I wanna do is sleep, curling up in my bed with all of my blankets and my puppy......well, its my brother's dog...but everyone including him agrees that shes pretty much mine. We have to give her bak tom. tho...I am very sad :( I don't wanna give her bak, I'll go into the city, but I don't wanna leave her there.....oh well, she will probably be bak to visit soon....ehhh...i have to go talk to my chem teacher....shes cool, everyones cool, and I am very happy...finaly, I am happy? wow, what a change, what a difference....to not walk around and have people ask you if you are okay or "smile much?"..........I'm worried about Nikki tho :( I want her to be happy as well, and shes not.......oi....well, i gotta keep trukin'...i was talking to Mr.Appleton..spelling? anyone? not even a titer? no? okay...and we were talking about working and college, and SATs and shit like that...it was cool, but i was like falling asleep, and slurring like I was Punk in Drublic *wink* heheheee...I can't wait for tonight, i get to see my sweety :D I love him so much, he has no idea...he makes me so happy, effortlessly...always making me laugh...and I'm not used to that so it is a welcome change....i wanna quit smoking...but its hard...well everyone knows that....but until u start having withdrawl symptoms, YOU HAVE NOOOOO IDEA....Josie Toast just waled in...i can't here what everyone is saying cuz of the headphones, but Josie always makes me laugh, shes sooo happy all the time...but not like another girl in our school...who shall remain nameless....shes not overwhelming...we have been trying to get together to go to the homeless shelter, and teach CCD together, but every possible thing that could fuck things up did, now for the past 4 weeks.....must talk to Miss. Finn...*slumps off chair..yawns....yawns again.....gets shit together* aight niggas..peace

Current Mood: lethargic

Current Music: Silverchair ~ Tomorrow

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Jan. 29th, 2004

10:41 pm

took me long enough didn't it.....an in tonight's case, it took me too long...*yawn* *another yawn*....i fel like some peanut butter...hmmm....peanut butter spread all over Rob's BODY!!!! hahahahahhah *wink*...aywa...nighty night everybody....or *snifle sniffle* whoever will evetually read all thi bull-honky

Current Mood: sleepy

Current Music: Dave Mathews Band - Crash

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